♥ Sunday, January 9, 2011
since nobody really looks at my blog, i might as well say im feeling bout rite now!!!!
told khalia tat im leavin 4 taiwan near the start of feb...well i dont noe if she remembered it anot, but i did told her tat im leavin 4 3 weeks!!!! BUT in fact i'll be over there 4 more than tat, 6 weeks which is close to 2 months!!! DO YOU WAT ITS LIKE bein over there close to 2 months...i might really go CRAZY!!!!! crazy in missing you guys, FARAH, SAIDAH, KHALIA, SHAADAH, ATIKAH, not to mention AWIN n RAMNAH!!!! arghhh im goin to soo miss them soo much till my heart will ache!!! n i really do ache!!!! THEY are a part of my life!!! wish i didnt hav to leave them...!!! n now im plannin to leave quietly....i doubt tat khalia remembered it!!! but i juz hope they do!!! to hear them say YAN, i am goin to miss you!!! juz hearin tat is enuf to make me cry, practically as i am writing dis post...i could almost cry...i didnt wan to tell you guys coz....i noe its a selfish reason or a stupid reason, call it wat you wan...but i juz dont wan you guys to be down, sad!!!!! i cant bear to see sadness in you, i wanna protect those smiles, i juz wanna see your smiles when i get back n when i go!!! YOU guys mean soo much to me...i really wanna tell you guys wat im bout to do...all dis while when i went out wif you guys, i felt soo sad tat im bout to go away, i kept my feelings bottled up, in my mind i juz wish you guys can stop me from leaving!!! i dont how many times i can call back when im over there, but if anything happens to me over there...well lets juz hope tat anything doesnt happen to me....ARGHHHH!!!! WAT SHOULD I DO!!!! WAT SHOULD I DO!!!! I DONT WAN TO SEE YOU GUYS sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOME1 please juz SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =( ='( =( ='(
4give me evry1 4 doin it again like tat time!!!! im really soory!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3YJz0w0NaRU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6LUxhpRizTo
4:05 AM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
