♥ Saturday, August 29, 2009
wow..its been so long since i last blogged, haha dunno why but i kind of missed it but today i juz wanna blog bout my feelings lately..needed to let it out hahaha soo bear wif me ehh..
i have been feeling down lately even though at school i may not look like it but trust me it hurts me soo much on the inside..i dont wan my frens to noe tats why i always act happy hahaha..why am i such a good guy?? haha juz kidding bout the last part..soo bout the down part
okay let me tell u bout a tale..bout an totally average guy n a totally special girl tat means the world to the guy..soo its like dis..well from the way i describe the tale you guys would probably tat..tat the guy fall in love wif the girl..haha but here comes the part..well soo the guy fall in love wif the girl soo much tat he always do the stupidiest thing for the girl like waitin for her, buying things for her n even though his frens told him to either go home instead of watin or dont buy things tat are expensive for her..he still didnt care, he would continue waitin n he didnt care much for his own pocket money, instead of spendin it on himself..he would rather spend it on her..even though he waited soo long..he was still satisfied enuf juz to see her from far or juz a simple smile and juz HI..for he juz wanted to see her
soo anyway..he loved her very dearly but deep inside he knew tat the girl would nvr fall in love wif him back..but he juz continue to do so..i really wonder wat drives him ehh?? hahah..he said tat he wanted a final answer from the girl coz if he didnt get the final answer, he would still continue to be HUNG UP on her or in simpler terms it means tat he couldnt get her out from his heart..soo 1 day she turned him down..he was sad, depressed n almost every night he cried himself to sleep not physically but inside he was crying..soo even then he still hopes for it..he knew tat it was really useless to hope but he still cling on to it...he then made an oath..his oath was tat if she wanted to be his fren onli soo shall he be too..he would do dis for her sake, if tat is wat makes her happy he will do it..coz seein her happy and always smiling is wat he desires the most..he knew tat he could nvr be the 1 for her but he nvr stopped believing n hoping until now he kept on loving her n she will and always forever inside his heart
So is LOVING some1 wif all their heart a crime??? N wat will you do if the person u love soo much rejected you?? Would you keep Hoping?? Will you keep on bein their fren even though if it kills u on the inside?? N is a person OUTER looks really tat important than the inside?? this questions are always inside my head
dis is juz like a song i heard from RASCAL FLATTS- WINNER AT A LOSING GAME
"Have you ever had to love some1, tat juz dont feel the same, tryin to make somebody care for you, its like tryin to catch the rain, N if love is really forever, im a winner at a losing game"
Is Hope onli for FOOLS?? tat i still dunno guess i will have to find out for myself
8:10 PM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
